Ahhhhhhhh!!! What to write, what to write?! I have been itchin' for something to say for weeks, because there has been so much going on, BUT because my life has been so chaotic - I haven't had time to blog. Hince, here I am, finaly my day off, I scheduled time to blog.
My head has been a nut case of thoughts, scatter brains to say the least... I will attempt to unfold everything in a reasonable manner, but I can't make any promises.
I just moved. Like 6 days ago. This will be the THIRD place I have trucked my stuff to since I met Ty. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't want to live without him, but I can't continue to jump around like this...3x in less than a year?? That's a bit much...even for me, and I come from a military moving family. I must say as much as I hate that we've moved so much, I'm actually happy with the place we are in now.
- good neighboorhood & amazing S--P--A--C--E
HUBBY DID WELL :)
i'm so excited to decorate & actually make this place a home for us. I'm praying this is the last stop for a while. Not just for me, but for Pax too. Speaking of Pax : so my goal is to get custodial parenting of Pax. I just feel like since Roxy never seems to want to have Pax around, and pawns him off all the time...why isn't SHE the one with visitation days instead of Ty? To be honest, I feel a little out of place being the one who is fighting for custody when Ty isn't, but someone needs to have this kids interest at heart. Someone needs to make this kid a priority.
Anyway, so next on my mind...my job. It blows and I know I can' do better, I've just been lazy. It was supposed to be a second job, in addition to my "real" job, but then I quit that "real" job and have been working the second - which is now my only - job. I want a real job, something I can be proud to say "this is what I do..." I shouldn't be nervous to bump into old classmates...but I am. I'm not the type to complain and NOT take action, I just don't know where to start.
Simple Rambling:
>Word on the street is Ty wants a homemaker wifey to pack his lunch and drive it to work with fresh squeezed lemonade
-that creeps me out because I will never be that woman for him. Maybe if what he wanted didn't require me stepping back into the 50's...
>Ty is being a big baby as a lately & I don't have the patience for it, which in turn is bringing on a lot of arguments.
-nothing horrible, but little stupid arguments all the same...it's like he expects me to coddle him; and I just can't wrap my head around it. When you have a 4yo you give up the option/opportunity to act like a child from time to time. I mean is it selfish of me to say that? He expects me to except his child, and become a 2nd mother to Pax, but I'm supposed to do that for him too?
>I haven't purchased a pair of jeans in a year! i'm freakin' the eff out! When I was averaging 2 pairs per month, I am loosing my mind, and can't hold it in anymore!
I think this is all i have on my mind right now..... so till next time. :o) I'll try to keep my sanity
